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[Monday
June 20th, 2005
3:20pm] |
Made a new journal...
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[Friday
June 17th, 2005
5:26pm] |
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.....wow. Theres no where for me to begin. Ive done soooo much stuff lately. All I have to say is.... KEG PARTY TONIGHT!! :D
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[Monday
June 13th, 2005
9:33am] |
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HOLY SHIT.. where to start, where to start... ok, here we go..
Friday..
*Went to Dustins
*Walked with jessica down to see halie
*Me, jessica, and halie went back to dustins
*They left and ashlee came over
*Waited forever on dus cuz he got a flat tire in new smyrna
*Got kicked out of justins porch by and old lady
*Me, ashlee, and dus went grocery shopping with my mom
*Saw pam and jamie
*Came home and swung on my tire swing
*Ashlee and Dus stayed the night
Saturday...
*Dus left at like 8am to go to work.
*Me and ashlee just screwed around the house cuz we were bored lol
*Me and ashlee went with halie, jeremy, jamie, and pam to get halie and pams nails done in port orange
*Went back to her house (shh) and smoked some weeeeeeeed :D
*Took ashlee home and went over to dustins
*Waited forever in his room till he got home from work
*He came home and we smoked some krip :D
*Went to bed
Sunday...
*Woke up st 8 cuz dus had to go to work
*Took a bubble bath : )
*Went to wal-mart to get cheapo flip flops
*Went to the beach with halie, pam, jamie, jeremy, kim, trish, cindy, jessica, and scott
*Took pictures of jeremy and jessica burried in sand with boobs and... male.. parts lol
*Had soooooo much fun
*Went back to halies hizzle
*Threw football back and fourth with jeremy
*Me and halie went to my house
*Took a shower
*Walked to the park.... the long way : /
*Came home and halies mom had to pick her up at like 9:30
*Dus came and picked me up
*Went to his house
*Walked around outside
*Saw james, richard, and cody
*Went back to dustins
*Went out walking again lol
*Saw shelby and went and sat out with him on justins back porch
*Went home around 2am
*Went to sleep
Well... you can say ive been pretty busy lol. ive had soo much fun this summer.. and its not even half way over!! :D
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[Thursday
June 9th, 2005
8:37am] |
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Ive been thinking alot about things and how ive changed since I moved back down here. And im not saying it in a good way. I dont know.. I just still really miss everyone in ocala. And if I had the choice, I would move back up there. I dont want any of my friends to take it personal or anything, like there not good enough friends because thats not true. I love my friends down here its just.. I thought oak hill was in my past. I started a new life up there. New friends, new house, new begining. And I really miss it.
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[Thursday
June 2nd, 2005
6:42pm] |
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The poem I wrote... rate it 1-10 (10 being the best)
The lights are out,
my world is black,
I sit alone,
against the corner in the back
I think of my life,
and how its passed me by,
I think of you,
but all I can do is cry
My head is spinning,
the tears are pouring out,
I look at my wrists,
and watch the blood dripping down
I look at the room,
all dark and cold,
my body is shaking,
and no one knows
I see headlights,
off in the distance,
but I know its not for me,
because nobody listens
I remember how easy,
my life used to be,
but all of a sudden,
everything changed on me
My life started veering,
just fading away,
now everything goes wrong,
each and every day
So dont even bother,
to try and fix my life,
ill just sit here alone,
like I do every night
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[Wednesday
June 1st, 2005
3:40pm] |
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Ive had a pretty good summer so far... I guess. I still really miss my friends in Ocala though. Well, Ive stayed at dustins alot. Me and boo stayed there last night. It was fun. I love my friends here soo much. (Dustin, Ashlee, Lindsay, Torri, Boo, Keriann, Kaylee, and lots more) I dont know what Id do without you guys! Thanks so much for being there for me when I needed you and when you had to deal with my bullshit.
One of the funnest days this summer was when me, vanessa, deseree, and dustin all went driving around in the middle of the night. We ran over a fucking pigeon. What the fuck? What kind of idiot bird would just... stand there? lol it was funny as hell though. But then again, it was pretty sad. We buried it by the swings at manatee park. I made a little cross out of sticks and my hair tie. lol. It was great.
Well, Ive got to go get ready cuz Im about to go over to Boo's house.
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[Sunday
May 29th, 2005
8:51am] |
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Ive had a really crazy weekend and I really fucked up. I dont know why I had those feelings... and I hope they go away... soon
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[Tuesday
May 24th, 2005
5:31pm] |
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1 MORE DAY OF SCHOOL!!! : D
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[Wednesday
May 11th, 2005
7:07pm] |
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Alright guys... I want at least 4 people to do this. Untill then, Im not writing in my journal. : P It wont take long, just copy and paste it as a comment and fill it out.
Take this...NOW!!
The Basics:
Whats your name?
Whens your birthday?
What school do you go to?
What grade are you in?
Whats your favorite color(s)?
Whats your favorite thing to do?
Whos your best friend(s)?
Whats your favorite brand(s) of clothing?
Whats your favorite band(s)?
Getting personal:
Who was the last person you went out with?
Have you ever been in love?
Whens the last time you made out with somebody?
What do you look for in a guy/girl?
Out of all the people you went out with, who did you like the best?
How old were you when you had your first real kiss?
How many people do you think you've went out with?
Us:
How did we meet?
How long have we know each other?
Were we ever close?
Whats your best memory of me?
Did you have fun when you were with me?
When was the last time you talked to me?
What would you do....
If I committed suicide?
If I moved in next to you?
If I stopped talking to you?
If I won 10 million dollars?
If I stole something?
If I moved to Africa?
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[Sunday
May 8th, 2005
7:58am] |
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Well, its 8:58 in the morning and I just got back from dustins house. He had to go to work today at 8:30 : / Last night was pretty fun. He came and picked me up after he got off work which was at like 10:15. I took 1,950mg of darveset. Yeah, you can pretty much say I was fucked. Then I passed out at like 2:15 cuz I had only gotten 3 hours of sleep the night before. Im probably going to his house when he gets off work which is at like 4. Well until then I dont have much to say.
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[Saturday
May 7th, 2005
9:12am] |
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Well here I am. I just left a lot of the most important things in my life to come down here and be in this gay fucking place...again. (not by my choice)I thought Oak hill was in my past....guss not. Guess I was wrong. like always. I dont want to be here at all. I left this place hoping I wouldnt come back and look. Im here again. I cant stand it here. Ive only been here since 6:00 this morning and I already want to go home. I have nothing left anymore. Its all downhill from here.
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[Friday
May 6th, 2005
10:49pm] |
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I hate my life. There are absolutly no words to decribe my feelings right now.
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[Thursday
May 5th, 2005
4:38pm] |
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( Awwe )
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[Tuesday
May 3rd, 2005
5:35pm] |
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Everybody, Im moving back down to new smyrna.
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[Sunday
May 1st, 2005
7:06pm] |
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I havent updated in awhile so here goes... Well, me and my mom were suppossed to move today but the the guy that we were gonna get our new house from said it wasnt gonna work out. Rickey came over and everything to help us move but we didnt. We have pretty much the whole house in boxes. I cant find shit. ugh I hate this. So on to my weekend... Friday I didnt really do anything because I didnt have a ride anywhere. Saturday, me and rickey went to the mall and movies and stuff for about 6-7 hours. We went and saw "A lot like love" it was cute. Well...I really dont have much more to say so im gonna go. Nobody ever reads my journals anyway so I dont see why I even bother.
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[Friday
April 22nd, 2005
9:37pm] |
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I have a different layout... Which one do you like better? My old one? (Taking back sunday) Or this one? Comment Plz <33
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[Monday
April 11th, 2005
4:01pm] |
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( Oh God )
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[Sunday
April 3rd, 2005
8:23pm] |
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holy shit..... i dont know where to start. well, thursday my mom had to go down to oak hill to drop clayton off and after that she was gonna go visit penny and them so i decited id go too. they asked me if i wanted to stay till sunday so i said ok. so i stayed at kittys that night with her friend chelsea. then the next day at like 8, dustin came and picked me up. then we went and dropped his dad off then went to blockbuster and rented movies that we never ended up watching lol. so then we went to his house and hung out there.... walked down the street at 2 in the morning, messed around with the video camera, stuff like that... it was so fun... then i got the idea that on saturday we should invite ashlee to the movies and make it like the good ol times. so we called her and she could go. so the next day derek came over to dustins and we hung out there for a while. then we went to dereks house and stayed there for a little bit then me and dustin left and went to the store. then after that, we saw his friend justin and he told us we could come over so we went down there. we didnt stay there for too long then left. then me and dustin walked down kaylees road and saw her. all 3 of us walked all the way down like 2 streets and were just talking and stuff, then her dad came so she had to go. so then ashlee came over and we all left and went to the votran stop. dustin picked me and ashlee up some flowers off the side of the road lol. so then we went to the movies to see who all was there. we saw a couple people then left and went down to mcdonalds and ate then went back up and walked around the neighborhood and the back of the movies. then we went back up to the entrance to see if anyone was up there and i looked through the window and saw lindsay and torri. so i tapped the glass and they saw me and totally freaked out. i saw soo many people there i knew.... it was crazy! i had so much freakin fun! so then at like 10:30, dustins mom came and picked us up and we went to his house to get my stuff then they dropped me off at kittys. so then we just sat around and stuff. well, this entry is really long so im gonna end it. l8err
ALL MY OAK HILL/EDGEWATER/NEW SMYRNA FRIENDS, I HAD SO MUCH FUN DOWN THERE AND IM GLAD I GOT TO SEE SOME OF YOU GUYS!! I HOPE I CAN COME DOWN AND VISIT AGAIN SOON!!
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[Tuesday
March 29th, 2005
3:30pm] |
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Well, my spring breaks going okay i guess. Friday in school we were suppossed to have our spring fling but it rained so they canceled it. So i had to sit on the floor in pe for like 2 and a half hours by myself cuz none of my friends were there because most of them couldnt go to the spring fling so they just skipped. it sucked sooo bad. Then saturday, my mom dropped me off at the mall and i met up with rickey. we hung out at the mall for a little bit, then we went to the movies to see what movie we wanted to watch. we wanted to see the ring 2 and it didnt start till 10:25, so we walked to wal-mart and messed around in thre for a little bit. then we walked other places then went to the movies. thee movie was pretty good... not as scary as the 1st one tho. so after the movie, my mom came and picked us and dropped him off at home. i didnt get home till 1:00 in the morning. so then yesterday, my mom had to leave early to go down to new smyrna to pick up clayton. then i got up and got ready because she was gonna pick rickey up and drop us off at the mall. i was so tired. we left at like 9:30. omg me and rickey walked everywhere my feet hurt so bad. we went and saw guess who. that was funny. so then at like 4:30 my mom came and picked us up from alltell an dropped him off at home. and now, im not doing anything. i just got out of the shower cuz i was out tanning and i was all oily. ok, well i ran out of things to talk about so l8er
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